The Weary is Strong

It is exceedingly hard to get back up on top of one's game if one is unable to attain a full night's rest. Lather, rinse and repeat the undersleeping and the problem can become chronic and deeply troubling.

And it effects my ability to think as coherently as I normally can. It changes my ability to be rational and objective. Plus it makes my writing suck more than usual.

The thing is, I can't seem to get to bed before midnight. No matter what I do or how hard I try, I always seem to end up going to bed right around midnight. And with early wakeups for work I am consistently getting less than 6 decent hours of sleep a night. Which I know is not especially healthy for my mind, my body or my life.

I know I should be able to just push back from my desk at 11 or earlier and just go to bed but all efforts to do so have failed thus far. And I'm not sure how much longer my sanity will hold on when its so badly frayed. Something's going to have to give because I really shouldn't be waking up more tired than when I went to bed.